Good afternoon, Monday.
Three Day Weekend, coming to an end.
What did I do?
Just as my last Post predicted.
But, with extra pain from my
I could not type yesterday, when I was working on my CDA Classes.
I’m actually worried.
I feel like everyday *(especially this past 1.5 Weeks) it’s worse.
But, back to my predicted three day Weekend.
Saturday, I watched The Big Chill *(In two pieces).
So, I re-viewed it in entirety last evening.
I took Classes, then decided to start my Sunday.
I was so uncomfortable with my Cervical Radiculopathy, I found it difficult to enjoy my time.
I ate a Salad *(Pre-Package, but I dresssed it-up with Onions, Chicken, two hard-boiked eggs, and my Favorite Kens Salad Dressing and Hot Sauce).
My Gastroparesis kicked in, so I found slumber and the bizarre Dreams/Nightmares I have been experiencing the last few nights.
I awoke to darkness, and it was only
I called my Mother, but she was busy.
I tried to return to dreams, but with the CR Pain, I decided to get-up and that’s when I re-watched The Big Chill.
I also played with my two Cats.
I was actually laughing so hard when we were playing.
I decided to continue my venture through another round of Mad Men. *(I’m on Season Four).
I believe this is my fourth go-around with the Series.
I was doing a lot of thinking as my Cats fell asleep, and I was engaged with the Series.
Thinking about my CR and how it’s bad again.
Thinking about lost Friendship.
Thinking of a Childhood Friend and what’s she’s currently going through *(Personally).
Thinking how often I am Alone.
And the difficulty I face trying to meet someone.
*I’ve given-up on Friendship in this town.
Thinking about my Parents and all their doing. *(BBQs, Parties, Church, Up-Coming Trip).
Yes, they started going to this Church three weeks ago after they went to a Baptism Ceremony.
They both really enjoyed the Church, they decided to continue to attend every Sunday since.
My Parents have not been to Church in probably two decades. *(Most likeky, for Christmas).
I asked my Father last Sunday,
Why this Church and What makes you go?
He responded: I like the message and I feel better.”
I am glad they both found this new Spirituality.
My Mother needs it as my Father.
With what everything that has occurred these last 1.5 Years, they both need it.
Then I thought about my own Spirituality, and how dark it’s become.
I can’t explain it.
But, it has.
I feel it inside and out.
I feel it in my Soul and even when I’m sitting on my *(late) Grandfather’s Couch, just listening to Music, I feel it, this Shift.
I still Meditate everyday, sometimes up to 5 times a day *(Guided Meditation).
My Buddha Statue and my Buddhist Bracelet are both still on-top of my Jewelry Cabinet/Stand.
I think/miss my Temple and
But, then the wave takes over and I start thinking in darkness.
But, return to the end of my Weekend.
I’m trying to meet people again.
It’s as usual, difficult *(which is sad since I never had a hard time meeting people).
Well, time is winding down for me to prepare for a long week. *(Yes, it’s only a 4 Day Week, but with my CR severely active again and my Job/Educate, it’s going to take a lot from me physically and emotionally).
I am trying to like my new Job/Educate, but I was hoping my Future Employer would be happening.
I still have Hope and my Dreams will come true.
For now, just keep doing my best, what is needed of me, and figure out how to Treat my CR again.
I hope everyone had a wonderful Labor Day.