I received an Invitation to see the
Peoria Symphony Orchestra this up-coming Saturday.
I’m contemplating this event.
*I wish she was going. But, she hasn’t responded to my personal message.
The last 1.5 Years, I used to Teach 3-5 Hours(minimum [on Saturdays]), then rest, then clean, then watch a Film and continue advancing my burdens.
I don’t have time to deal with people.
After my Best Friend killed himself, I’m not the same. I don’t look forward to “Hanging-Out,” getting all dressed up and keeping up with the bullshit.
I have no laughter left.
Plus, Peoria is far.
I’m not allowed to drive certain distances.
Thank You Dysautonomia.
It’s also Valentine’s Day themed.
I definitely want to remain secluded.
As Ginuwine is playing on the speakers, snow plows buzzing through, I see my never been worn red skirt with a thigh-high slit.
I was saving that skirt for a night of me flying Solo looking for College Boys. *Until I saw a few here,
I haven’t been out on a ‘Saturday Night’ since October 14, 2017.
My obligations are my Career (which has been established as non-existent now[not on my end]), and my personal struggle alongside my Disability.
So, what, I Teach my 1 Class on Saturday Morning, rest, dye my Hair and get ready to be around people I have zero interest in?
My Social Heart is finished.
Oh yeah, and I don’t have an Income.
The End, Weekends.